“I *need* you.” If I’ve actually said these words before, out loud to another person, I can guarantee I didn’t feel good about it. Why? Admitting need — that something in my life is insurmountable, un-handle-able, unfathomable without help — is something I’m never willing to admit in my finer moments. Saying that I need …
Oyeme
Maybe I’ve doomed myself to this adrift uncertainty that has taken hold in the last few days; I was already feeling a bit off, and then I went archives surfing for old pictures while simultaneously listening to some of the most powerfully evocative music in my multi-gig collection. The result? I’m drowning in a sea …
Welcome To Limbo!
If there’s one thing I’ve learned in my life, it’s indisputably that I don’t really cope well with being in limbo. The in-between moments are where life is lived, but no matter how much I tell myself this, I nevertheless feel itchy and restless in the in-between bits. Even with my greatly increased maturity-inspired patience, …
Happy new year!
I don’t really believe in making new year’s resolutions, but for all practical purposes, my list of things to do in 2012 is working as a list of resolutions… and I’m okay with that. So here we go — subject to revision as the year progresses: Rock climbing — give ‘er a whirl!Groupon secured! Figure …
Two songs for the day
Actually, here’s yesterday’s song of the day — a standby favorite from one of my favorite people in the whole wide world … but that I can’t listen to very often, as it completely rips me apart. But, yesterday was that sort of day. Thanks, Tim! And, today’s song of the day, as suggested by …
Trend spotting
Looking for trends in my behavior? I feel like it’s one of the more useful tools in my self-care arsenal. Those trends aren’t always comfortable to recognize or fun to embrace, but the net result is usually pretty helpful. Project Liz is progressing well, I think. While walking last night, though, I was spending a …
Found time!
I had a tutoring appointment this morning, but she overslept and didn’t show, so I find myself now with a bit of found time and thought I’d use a teeny bit of it engaging in some blogging. A few highlights from Project Liz: A couple of days ago, I bought my first-ever pedometer, and yesterday …
Project Liz
I talked elsewhere, in very vague terms, about Project Liz, but I’m feeling the need to talk about this some more … or maybe, given my overwhelming nausea in just thinking about posting this in a forum where someone else might actually READ it, perhaps I’m just feeling the need to write about it. I’m not sure. …
Bon anniversaire
Happy birthday to my ex-bff. It is so painful, still. I remain steadfast in my unwillingness to reopen that chapter of my life… because I know it would end in abrupt disconnection and deep, deep hurt, once again. Still, it hurts, and it sucks, and I miss having someone who knows me so well. Bon …
We’ll call this “healing.”
I dug this out of my e-mail archives today. It felt like it might need a more public airing than the original BCC to Derik. Tuesday, Nov. 2, 2010, 2:23 a.m.I just got home from my whirlwind trip to DC. It was a loooong ass drive back… I didn’t get on the road until around …